Thursday, March 25, 2010
53 Days Till I Do
Wedding Day!!!
Oh man. Tired from last night. Not only did I sleep on rough mattress in the parents' house last night I forgot my contact solution and slept in my contacts. :( Not fun. Dad and I are up at the Southwood House its 9am. Guess what!! It's freezing cold with 20 miles per hour wind. :( Plus, the tent guy showed up early and setup the tent in the wrong place. :(
I called Cassie about 10am and told her everything that is going wrong, "John do not worry about it we will roll with it. The most important thing is you saying I do." Her words sank into my heart like the Titanic sank to the ocean floor. Dad and I departed from the wedding site with a smile on our face. We were going to make it work.
6 pm roll up pretty fast that day. The boys looked sharp and handsome in the black suit tuxes and groomsmen all made it into to town safely. The day went like a flash. I found myself smiling for 24 hours straight. I think I found new levels of my smile when I saw Cassie walk down the aisle with Dustin. She glowed in her white dress. The dress was a little modern with a pinch of traditional it equaled to perfection. The morning problems vanished into to thin air the wedding ceremony and reception was memorable. This was our day. The wind stayed with us all day and night making it cold cold cold.
At the end of these 53 days, I said," I DO!!! "
53 Days Till I Do
1 Day!
OMG! Tomorrow I am officially married, a husband, step-father/steppy-d, and extremely happy! These 53 days of blogging about my experience has been life changing. Tonight my oldest step-son Dustin gave Cassie and I a toast. There were definitely tears from Cassie and I both. He told me how I have changed his life, but the real change has been me. My boys have changed me into something amazing. No longer am I the self centered individual that I once was. My friend Matt from high school told me best, “There was Peacock and then there was P. P was the egotisical guy who made sure no one got close to him. Peacock is the all smiles, friendly, hey lets hang out beyond a bar, and returns phone calls.”
Is this a new leaf turned over? Yes, I no longer have to put up a castle to protect my heart. I don’t have to revolve everyone around my world. I don’t have to be afraid of love. The boys and Cassie have moved into my castle and are permanent residents. This has been something that I have been waiting for my entire life. Cassie is the One.
24 hours Till I Do!
53 Days Till I Do
2 days!
OMG (oh my goodness)! In 48 hours the wedding is here!!!!! It seems like everything is in slow motion. The incredible feeling of happiness is in the air. The boys are super excited, Cassie can't stop smiling, and I have just won the lottery. Yes literally, Cassie called my lucky numbers and in two days I get to spend the rest of my life with her. How much is my ticket worth? Its priceless. There is nothing in the world that can equal the value of her and the boys.
Cassie and I are finishing up the last of the details. We have boxes lining the hallway to be delivered to the Southwood House. All of little extra pieces of decoration, glam, and space fillers are doing to be setup tomorrow!
Some of the family have come into town and just so crazy happy for us. Plus, Mom dropped the bomb on me. She told me that I will be spending the night at her house away from Cassie. :( Bummer! Traditions are written in stone it seems like in the Peacock Family. I will grant Mom her wish. Its going to rough Friday night without Cassie.
48 hours and I am MARRIED!!!!
53 Days Till I Do
3 Days!
I am little nervous today. I am not scared of the "I do" but of everything coming together. Our wedding day has to be perfect. My checklists are coming in quite handy right about now. I do not have to worry about forgetting anything because it is all written down. The bartenders, tent folks, publix, the cake shop and the southwood house are out of my control. I just have to pray that everything we have paid them to do will be carried out.
The boys on the other hand are so excited. They haven't stopped talking about it. Its going to be a big event in their lives. I just want everything to go right.
I took the boys to pick up there tuxes today!! We had to make sure they fit.
Tip: Have everyone try on the rentals. Make sure everything is there as well.
The boys look sharp. Now I have to wait for my groomsmen to pick their tux up and I'll be less nervous.
53 Days Till I Do
4 days!!!
Magic is in the air! Cassie returned home about 8:17pm last night. She was exhausted. She had a wonderful time and had gained some new experience with the wedding business.
The boys came home today as well, its Monday!!! Yay! Saturday is creeping closer and closer and the boys and I are bonding more. The feeling I received from them after school pick up was speechless. They are so excited about March 13th. Ethan told me he can't wait to write Ethan Haire-Peacock. I cannot even begin to explain the happiness that ran through my heart at that moment. I knew that God had made me the luckiest man with Ethan's comment. This is just one of the many joys of becoming a Step-Father!
I hope one day 10 years from now the boys look back on March 13th as one of their happiest moments. I will never forget Ethan telling me that.
53 Days Till I Do
5 Days!!
The days are going much much slower. Cassie and I have been thinking about this day and my goodness did Saturday take forever! We were told by a number a people that the days will start to melt away faster, faster and faster. Well its not happening. The grains of sand in the hourglass are not moving any faster. I love it.
Cassie today helped a friend out with Woodland Fields Photography booth in Panama City. She left early in the morning not to return until late in the evening. I was happy for her because our friend Catherine Taylor had shot Cassie in her dress and decided to use her modeling pic on a large canvas. That canvas rode with them to Panama City to be displayed at the wedding booth. I still haven't seen Cassie in her dress or the dress at all. Their is something more powerful than Christmas morning to see Cassie in her dress in 5 days! The surprise is killing me. I am trying not to think about it or even tempt myself by being in the same room as the dress. The tradition of waiting is worth it.
Dad and I met up at his house and we traveled to Southwood house, my wedding site, to outline the last of the planning particulars. He and I are trying to visualize the lights around the trees, power cords to the lights, DJ is going to be here, tent is here, etc. I am thinking to myself, "John, I cannot waste time this close to the wedding."
Tip: Gentlemen being over prepared is your motto for your wedding.
It was great to get Dad updated on the preparations. I know between the two of us the wedding will be dreamy!
53 Days Till I Do
6 days!!
Exactly 1 week until my life is changed forever. There is still so much to do for the wedding. I am just lucky that my Fiance hasn't stressed out. Today we are looking for gift boxes for my step sons. The groomsmen are receiving flasks for their gift and the step sons are getting something as well. Ethan's gift is an FSU water bottle, Dillon's gift is a Georgia water bottle and Dustin's gift an engraved flash drive with his initials DMH.
Gentlemen reading this blog, Micheal's the craft store has everything. I repeat Micheal's craft store has everything you need for the details of the wedding. Its a store that you will become all to familiar with. Don't fight it because your frequent visits will show more support for your fiance than ever before.
1 Tip: Starbucks coffee goes a long way before walking into the retail store.
Cassie and I did end up finding gift boxes for the boys. It was a simple trip. I know the boys will enjoy the gifts. The boys loving college football makes it easier to find something for them. Now if I can only find something for my Dad.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
53 Days Till I Do
7 Days!
This is it. 1 more week and holy matrimony. This is incredible. This is better than me making my 1st start for Florida State Football. 80,000 screaming fans don't compare to the bounce I am feeling right now. Its Saturday morning about 9:03am and one week from now I'll be getting prepared for I Do. :)
Cassie and I enjoyed a Coffee Date this morning. Thank you Starbucks. Having your best friend to share the rest of your life with is truly spectacular. We are talking about one week from now, the wedding rings, the placements of everything and the weather. :( The weather might be a little chilly. Its nothing that portable heaters won't fix. The weather says no rain that's a major plus. We relax for a short while longer at Starbucks. The parents had called and wanted us to stop by before we ran all over Tallahassee.
My parents' house. Mom and Dad. I can't get over it, in a good way, that Mom hugs Cassie first. I'm the baby in the family. Jeez. :) I want to group hug Mom and Cassie every time that happens. I love the fact that Mom and Dad both have welcomed her and the boys into our family. Cassie is the daughter they always wanted. Becoming a Step-Father is something I am proud of. It helps a lot that my family and Cassie and the boys all get along. I can't picture my life with Cassie and the boys. One week Until I Do.
53 Days Till I Do
8 Days!
The best part of waking up is my fiance next to me. I love seeing her smile, feeling her warmth, and hearing her say good morning. As for the wedding she has put in 99% of planning into the wedding and the last little details are simple. I am making sure that the last 1% is good to go.
Today is Friday. It's haircut day. My fiance once told me she loves my hair one week after the cut. 8 days is close enough and I certainty did not want to go and get a hair cut on Saturday. My stylist told me congratulations and if I needed a touch up before the wedding come see him. Toppers is the name of the salon I have been going to since 2003. Trent is the best stylist ever. He transitioned me from the South Florida Spiky Gelled Hair to Professional Business Look. I trust only him with my hair. I'd wait 5 hours if I had to. Plus, I need look my best for one of the most important days of my life.
Something I witnessed as I am talking about my wedding in the salon, everyone is listening. Their was probably 15 people casually eve dropping. I caught a number of them in the mirror smiling at themselves either remembering about their wedding day or excited to one day have a wedding day. It was great. I feel my smile gets bigger each time I talk about Cassie, the boys or our wedding. I feel as though energy of love infects everyone. I know people enjoy the feelings of happiness. That's what weddings are supposed to do they bring out the best in everyone. The joy of attending, being apart of, or just listening about a wedding warms a person's heart. Everyone in Toppers that evening felted my excitement and joy. I am the lucky one that is marrying my best friend, soul mate and equal. 8 days!
Thursday, March 4, 2010
53 Days Till I Do
9 Days!!
I know! Single Digits!! Oh my how the days have been drawn out and long. I have truly enjoyed the road to marriage. I still think Male Fiance's need a ring as well. Maybe a ring on right hand to signify, "he's taken/spoken for." Its crazy how everyone strives to be different yet follows the same traditional wedding formalities. Maybe a Celebrity just need to introduce that from Hollywood to gain more awareness. Or maybe no one really cares. I care.
I had a unique lunch appointment today. A business contact that I have known over the last year. He talked about mergers. I am not merging with anyone for my business but about merging community associations together. I thought about Cassie's family merging with my family.
Cassie family and my family. She is marrying into one of the best Peacock Clan's in the world. Her boys now become cousins with hundreds of my peacock cousins. I never put much thought into. I am blessed that my family and her family are bonding so easily. My mom and dad become instant Grandparents. My brother becomes Uncle James. My Aunts and Uncles become their Aunts and Uncles. :) Its a wonderful incorporation of Cassie and I. It's amazing to sit down and actually think about the impact our love and marriage affects. In the History Book of John and Cassie Peacock this day March 13, 2010 cements our love forever. The Peacock family tree has just merged more names for the best.
53 Days Till I Do
10 Days!!
Cassie comes home today from her 3 day trip in Orlando. The sales conference is finally over, YAY! I hope she had fun because the days have stretched out long. I mean its like being pick for jury duty. You sit in the court house for 10 hours walking in and out of courtrooms only to be dismissed because of your age. I missed her to say the least.
About 7 months ago I had bought two storage shelf racks for the garage. They are 7 feet long, 1 1/2 ft wide, white wired finished, and smashed between a few boxes. In that time I had managed to put up one of those shelves. One side of our two car garage was messy, cluttered, and in the way. I am currently learning to become a good husband and one of those things is finish the home project. Trial by fire with finishing home project. In those 7 months I allowed the garage to be undervalued. I kept putting it off telling myself, " I'll get it another day." Well that day turned into, two days, three days, a week, two weeks, a month, and finally into 7 months!
Well today I changed all of that! I finally conquered that GARAGE! I told myself no longer and I going to be letting that shelf push me around. In a quick 45 minutes I taught that shelf whose boss! Those boxes are no longer in the way of the car and quite possibly two cars could fit now. The boys aren't with us this week but I know they would be proud as well.
The lesson from this is finish what you started. Allocate time to complete the task at hand. Remember that motivation and great feeling. Apply it to everything else in your life. Marriage and raising children are projects that take a lifetime to complete. Are you ready to build?
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53 Days Till I Do
11 Days!!
Love isn't enough. Love in relationship is a prerequisite. Something bigger has brought you two persons together and join them in marriage. I feel a superior passion, trust and an active participation over time is what makes a lasting marriage. Over the last 28 years I have learned from two great teachers, my parents.
I am thankful that my parents taught me what a strong healthy marriage should be. Some friends and other family members got divorced. Their will never be an exact Patrick and Donna Peacock. They loved, argued, and were best friends. My marriage to Cassie will be similar but customized. Every couple is different. Cassie and I have traveled different roads, and ran different races to get to the faithful foundation of marriage March 13th. I am excited to have fun, actively participate in Cassie's and my Boys lives, and show them my passion called love. Every day I will have to earn their trust but I am ready to continue that bond. I look forward to joining the club of doing the right thing, making time for my family and being a loving husband.
53 Days Till I Do
12 Days!!
As if the first night of Cassie's 3 nights in Orlando away was going to be easy. I tell you tossing and turning in a king sized bed with cold sheets is recipe for no sleep. Moving around this morning and taking the boys to school was slow. I have been taking for granted the warmth, sweet smelling, and beautiful Cassie. I suppose I was just used to waking up and Cassie being next to me. I miss her dearly. I have been searching for the woman that I love for 27 years. Cassie is that woman. The phrase, "You never know what you have until you lose it." I won't lose Cassie but I do miss her more than ever. The boys are very smart and can tell that I am a little off. Dillon and Ethan tell me that Mom, Cassie, will be home before we know it. I just smiled and kept driving to the school. It's the greatest feeling in the world to have your children brighten your day. Their was a piece of me that was missing and Cassie and the boys are the missing piece.
53 Days Till I Do
13 Days!!
Cassie is leaving today, :(. I am sad. Sad like your best friend moving away. The good though Cassie comes back on Wednesday! I am already visualizing her return. Steak, wine, and girl scout cookies!
Having the boys to myself for one night! Dustin, Dillon and Ethan my sons. I personally feel that everyday the boys are with me our bond grows stronger. I understand that I am not their Dad but it won't stop me from still being a Dad. My growth with them as has been nothing short of excellence. The true of feeling of being a Step-Father is seeing your best qualities in them. They are strong, respectful and sarcastic. Its family supper tonight as well. It is even more evident of the respectful joking. Dillon and Ethan have learned so much from me to make everyone at dinner laugh. Months before they would talk softly and now they make everyone smile. I feel its a good trait to have. It will be easier for them to break the ice, engage in a conversation, and make someone smile. (I am smiling now just thinking about them.) The joy of becoming a great father has hit me hard. The amazon river of ideas is flowing to teach them more. Rome wasn't built in a day. I do love seeing them smile at me because they know where they learned it.
53 Days Till I Do
14 Days!!
Its Friday! Ethan has his 100 point party at School today. 100 point party is something his 3rd Grade does as a reward. The teacher has a point system on a number different things. Such as, completed homework, meeting your reading goal, behavior etc. Ethan wanted Cassie to make her "Special Dip." What was cute Ethan wrote on his reminder slip about the party that Cassie needs to make the "Special Dip" for Friday. Of course we made the dip but keeping it away from his brothers was the hard part. Cassie and I had to keep it out of sight from the sharks. I just wish the teacher would invite me to the party. That dip is so good!
Ethan has baseball practice today as well. I am just ready for the cold to go away! Or maybe the wind that is slicing my face, drying my contacts and is a pain to my knees would go away. Dillon and Ethan are opposite teams again but this year Ethan doesn't start the season with a broken arm. I felt the hurt in his heart because he couldn't join his teammates at the beginning of the season. I would throw the baseball with Dillon as Ethan watched. I helped Dillon with hitting the ball while Ethan snagged. Cassie and I both smiled big when he met his new teammates this year. Ethan finally gets to let out all of his excitement for practice. I swear he had an extra gear of energy. He was bouncing around, leading the team in each drill and impressed the Coach with his hustle. Day was the day he has been wanting for a whole year. I was happy for him.
53 Days Till I Do
15 Days!
"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you do not trust enough."
~Frank Crane
Dillon's baseball practice was canceled last night. The rain and park not turning on the lights at 7pm were the only factors a canceled practice. Cassie and I met Dillon's Coach, Coach Dustin. She and I very excited because the year before Dillon's baseball coach was not prepared/experienced in baseball. We trusted the former Coach for a whole season and just dreaded every game. Its an enormous relieve as a parent that the new coach has 12 years coaching experience under his belt and his team last season won the park championship.
As a new step-father I have to trust myself to be the best father/parent/step-father/johnjohn/steppy-d I can be. I am looking forward to making mistakes because I get to learn from them. The same trust I use for myself I have to make certain I have earned it from my kids and future wife. Things that are important to me are my random acts of kindness and the desire to participate in their lives. Whether that consists of practicing sports, helping with their homework, listening to their day, making coffee in the morning, leaving ninja notes around, or telling them I love them. I have to earn their trust everyday, day after day after day. That's what a family is, does, and strengthens. I believe so strongly in family and they are my family. Trust is number one on the Step-Father chart.
